Life lately
Wassup?
I've been MIA, but i'm back and i'm better *cue Bryson Tiller* lol
But I have been trying to get myself together, and not only that, trying to stay sane in this wicked world that we are in now.
Lately, I have been finding myself more anxious than ever, I find that breathing may get out of control, or my heart may start beating, so I always find ways to self soothe, I may take a break from what I'm doing and go for a drive ( yes, in this economy lol), or to lay down to regroup myself and pray to release this pressure of anxiety. I always have these two verses in my head reminding me to never allow anxiety to live in me, it's just passing through. ( Philippians 4:6-7, and 2 Timothy 1:7).
Recently, my prayers have been more transparent than ever, I began to be more vulnerable with God, and share every detail of my life with him, I have always done this, but certain situations I would always assume that God already knows how I felt about it, but it's another thing to go to The Father and really be open about what you are feeling. That may seem foolish, but to him it shows a level of honesty and trust which he deeply respects. I would share different parts of my life with him, then I would surrender those feelings that were negative in me to him because he wants us to (1 Peter 5:7), and I would ask for peace in my mind and in my heart to take the place of what once caused me negative feelings, but not anymore. Life recently has become more intense which would cause me to be saying those prayers more often.
This world has become a place where children are going to school in fear, hopping off of the bus
Hoping and praying that they would make it home safe to their family, to the smell of their favorite dinner, instead worried if a school shooter may appear, instead of worrying about their assignments.
The world has become a place where people look over their shoulder in the grocery store, a place that has no reason for violence to take place
Where guns are in the wrong hands mostly to promote fear other than a sense of protection.
Tears strike the ground for the ones lost
And prayers sent to Heaven for the ones that are grieving.
