Faith
Wassup?
Let's talk about the opposite of fear, Faith.
If you didn't get a chance to read my last blog post, I recommend you go back and read that one before this one- Ray
As I was writing my last blog post about fear, I was in the middle of a situation that had me fearful, when the only thing that God was telling me to have was Faith in the midst of that situation.
Matthew 21:21-22 “21: Assuredly I say to you, if you have faith and do not doubt, you will not only do what was done to the fig tree, but also if you say to this mountain, be removed and be cast into the sea,it will be done”, “22: And whatever things you ask in prayer, believing, you will receive”.
Let me give you a little backstory…..
This week, in the midst of me being in transition from me moving back home, the excitement slowly funneled into fear, anxious if I even made the right decisions recently, I continued to pray and ask God for peace to know that everything was going to be okay, which it was, but I struggled to fully have faith that God was going to do it for me. I was praying and asking God for a breakthrough this summer, ya girl needed a job. Instead of me praying and giving it to God, I prayed, and kept worrying about it, looking back, it was hard for me to enjoy that week off because the of the cloudy days ,which should have been peaceful, striked my mind with frustration, causing my peace to shake, and doubt rumbled through me like the thunder. The jobs that I thought were for me were not, email after email started the same, “ thank you for applying, but…”, I began to worry about if I was going to find a job soon, I had fear that it was going to take months as it did for me before, I did not want to go through that again, I didn’t want to go through the waiting, the penny-pinching, the rejections. I was scared. As I was writing my blog post last week, I had trouble focusing because my mind would wander to my situation, I was truly discouraged. The faith that was once as large as a mountain in me, shrunk down into a mustard seed( Luke 17:6), I was honest, “Lord, I need you to help me, I’m coming to you sincerely, doubtful, fearful, frustrated, I need help”, I spoke out loud on my knees in my bedroom, truly over the war in my mind, and what was taking place in my life at the moment, I began to lay it all down, I was honest and I believe God honors honesty, even though He knows all. I fought through the times of doubt by reminding myself of the scriptures that I had in the wall of my dorm room, Deuteronomy 28:12 “The LORD will open unto you his good treasure, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season, and to bless the work of your hands, you shall lend to many nations, you shall not borrow”.
I had faith in what the Lord did for me in the past, even though my situation looks different this time, He. is capable, the challenge was did I know that He is capable to do it, did I have the faith in Him to do it for me? “ I am a lender, not a borrower” I kept reciting, even though my situation was crippling me with fear and anxiety, even though I was so close to being a borrower, even though I kept worrying I couldn’t just give in, I had to fight back with what I know is true, which is the word of the Lord, I chose to have Faith in what is unseen, I chose to be confident that the Lord was going to bless me with a job, even though my chances were slim, even though doubt and fear tried to cause me to give up, I was sure that it was going to happen(Hebrews 11:1)! I didn’t know how, or when, but soon! As I’m sitting outside, watching the wasps fly around me and I’m frantically running around lol, I ended up sitting in the garage where it is safe, where I can focus and listen to music peacefully, I began to talk to God about different situations in my life, I talk to Him just as I talk to my physical friends, then I get a call. I get a call from my previous manager who is so elated to hear from me, she offered me a job position on the spot with no hesitation, its almost like she was waiting for me to call, the pain that I was feeling the days before felt distant, it felt useless, but the faith that I chose to have in God won once again, I exhaled as I accepted the position with no hesitation, but the funny thing is, I was hesitant to re-apply to that Job days before, but when I called her she was on it immediately which made me feel like God was showing me what happens in the spirit, I called out to him, had faith, and he moved when it was right to, through his will. Those other jobs were what I thought I wanted, and when I got rejected, it hurt me, but little did I know that God was working all along even when it felt like he was not.
He blessed me with a job position that is double the amount of the job that I thought was for me! PRAISE HIM! When I got that call, the only thing that I could do was worship and thank him! Now, I'm not just telling you this testimony to brag, but to know that God did it for me, so he could definitely do it for you (James 4:2-3, you have not because you ask not, ask the Lord for what you want, and be in a position to receive what you ask for, have Faith!). I struggled with having faith in the times where it is needed sometimes because our promise could look so unpromising, or so far, but once you let go of the worry and anxiety and give them to God, you will receive unexplainable peace and reassurance (1 Peter 5:7, Phillipians 4:6-7). Now this is something that I am still working on as well, but I can give you some pointers that have helped me with my faith journey.
@proclaimgreetings on tiktok have taught me so much about faith, I’ll share a few notes from her video on faith and extra scriptures that have helped me through this journey.
Faith is heaven's currency- Just as Matthew 21:21-22 says, if you have faith and do not doubt, in return, your faith is what you need in order for things to move in your life according to the Lord. We cannot have what we do not believe we can have! Get into the position of receiving/ being the things you prayed for! “ Receive what you are buying with your faith”
Proverbs 18:21 - the power of life and death lies in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit. Speak it! You have it! You ARE healed!
I also recommend reading the book of James that has a lot of wisdom on faith
I'm blessed to be a blessing! I'm praying for you all in your faith journey!
If you have any questions, or anything, feel free to reach out to me!
Thanks for tuning into da roux <3
