You Need Help.
Happy December! I’m so thankful for this time of year, it's finally starting to get chilly, and I am starting to get a bit busier in the holiday season.
Along with the first rain/chilly day for me, came a photoshoot for my business that required me to take a few of my studio lighting and a few other props and stuff it into my car. I quickly did so, as I prepared myself to drive to the location of the photoshoot.
After it all our photos were done at this beautiful location, it was time for me to pack up. As I was doing so, my client asked me if I needed help bringing any of my lighting to my car, it would have made so much sense for me to just say yes, but what came out of my mouth was the opposite, “ehh, I should be fine” as I wrestled with stuffing everything into my camera bag while also trying to carry two big studio lights. I felt so foolish saying no, because I couldn’t figure out why I would have ever said that I didn’t need help, when it was very evident that I did. With the rain pouring down a bit harder, my client looked at me and said “Ray, are you sure that you don’t need any help?” I responded so hesitantly to the point where he just grabbed my lights and carried it to the car anyways, which I was so grateful for, but it shouldn’t’ve had to happen that way. When. I got in my car, I asked myself “Ray, why was it so hard to just say yes to help when you needed it most?” I felt as though I had to address this internal issue immediately.
As I was pondering on it a few minutes later, that interaction truly made me emotional for a second, and I’m always amazed on how Holy Spirit chooses to speak to me and the unique ways he shows me different lessons.
My relationship with The Lord is very important to me, and how I do one thing, can be how I do all things in my life, and this was an area that he needed me to nip in the bud immediately.
The revelation that I received from The Lord was twofold (two different meanings/revelations), the first one exposed the spirit of pride that was trying to create certain false beliefs in me that would make me be counter dependent in the long run (which is against Gods nature, and he lives in me, so I would be conflicting him), and the second revelation, I will talk about in a part 2 post!
As simple as it seemed, just saying no to help, had the potential to open other doors spiritually through pride, ultimately leading to me in the future, potentially not opening to The Lord himself when I need help. And I needed to uproot that seed that was planted.
One thing that I need to address, is that I am not a “Strong-Independent Woman who can do bad all by herself,” that’s not me. I am not who the world tries to paint me out to be, I need help!! Period! Everything that I do is reliant through the Holy Spirit. And for me to even catch something like this, has me very observant on what is going on in the spirit, the enemy was trying to get me to come into agreement with the spirit of Pride very slyly, very casual, but detrimental way. This is why the Bible talks about us not being ignorant to Satans devices, and how he uses things/ experiences to come against us, to plant these dangerous seeds ( 1 Peter: 5-8).
It is in our nature to rely and depend on The Holy Spirit, when pride is in the mix of your relationship with The Lord, it becomes as if a large wall is between the two of you, because there’s no trust, and if there’s no trust, there is no dependency, and openness, there’s no way you can go deeper in a relationship like that without removing it.
The spirit of Pride is sly, it’s something that I honestly never thought I ever struggled with until this year, because it has orchestrated itself to lie below our spiritual radars. It has become so common in this world, that it can hide in plain sight now. But for believers, that’s something that Holy Spirit is calling us out of!
Woman/Man of God, you need help, and its okay!
One of the scriptures that has been helping me is James 4:2 “You have not, because you ask not.”
How many blessings/ destiny helpers / necessities that we needed, but didn’t happen because we did not open our mouth when we needed the help.
Whew, I will have to do a part two of this!
My prayer is that you will humble you heart in the sight of The Lord, and you will be vulnerable to him whenever you need help! He will send people/ things your way, I pray that you will have a heart to receive the help!!
