Blogmas Day 2!

Blogmas day 2

          This week was really transformative for me, I finally sat and addressed situations that were rumbling in me, I finally did something that I had been struggling to do these past few months, I forgave myself. 

        My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, my heart beats as his own, and so does my intellect, for it is intertwined with his, so who am I, if I am not of him… one thing I forgot to mention that though I am a vessel of the Lord, I am human, he understands my frustrations, he understands my shortcomings, he knows me better than I know myself,  so when it comes to me, how is everyone around me still seeing the glory that is in me if I am struggling to see it myself, “how can I ever forgive myself?” I questioned. 

     My biggest weakness in this journey was not allowing God to take care of my burnout, to not give him my frustrations and weariness, I assumed that if I told him that I was weary, he would assume that I wasn't strong enough for the promise…WRONG… that is a manipulation mechanism from the enemy to push you to give up, to push the very thing that is keeping you upright  away… God. 

1st Peter 5:7 states to cast all of your cares on the Lord, for he cares

Remember to never believe the lies, no matter how loud it gets, our God is louder! 

     Growing my relationship with God, I am reminded daily that God honors honesty, he will give me strength in my weak areas, he is with me when I fall, and when I rise. I am called for a reason. ( cue that moana scene.. Lol ). When I chose to forgive myself, I came to an agreement with the father who already forgave me, there's no reason to stay in that place of condemnation. When I forgave myself, I chose to grow, I chose to not let the past define me. When I forgave myself, I chose to become more in alignment with God. 

Forgive yourself, if you haven't already my friend. 

• Raylyn Castille